DRAMA!

A friend made a comment about how I always have so much drama in my life.  She said it with love, but the comment stayed with me.  People that get all wrapped up in the drama of their life usually drive me crazy.  Had I become the type of person that I can't stand to be around?  I have contemplated over those words for over a week now and I think I have figured out why my life is full of drama.

I have a husband and 5 adult step children!  When it was just me, there wasn't much going on.  Now that I added an additional 6 people to my life, it is a 3 ringed circus!  There is NEVER a time when something isn't going on. These are adults going through their first careers and first loves. Many times I feel that I am in the middle of a tornado and the best thing I can do is to hold on.  The upside of this is I always have interesting stories, so you want to sit next to me at functions.  The downside is that there is always something going on.  It is rare to have quiet times.  The stress level can go through the roof.

When things were stressful for me before I lost the weight, I would resort to eating.  Now, I exercise.  Sometimes 3 times a day!  Exercise and my band keep my weight in check.  Love my band.

Being a parent is still new to me (almost 7 years and counting).  I am reminded of a scene in the movie "Parenthood" where the grandmother speaks of the roller coaster ride.  Up and down, up and down, she had never been so scared and thrilled at the same time.  She says some prefer the merry go round, but that it is boring, just goes round and round.

I like the roller coaster with all its ups and downs and the drama!  What a ride!

Brain Buzz

Do you ever have so much going on that you get brain buzz?  For me, I don't have a lot going on physically, but mentally, my brain is doing back flips!  Lately I find that I am busy worrying about everything.  I worry about my husband, my stepchildren, a job, my dog, my mom, my friends....  Phew!  I am exhausted.  In March I went to Miraval Spa and promised to stop worrying so much and to live in the moment.  I did pretty well for the month of March, but slowly my and some of April.  Slowly but surely, my old self has creeped back in.  Ugh!  All this worrying is stressing me out!

The good news is my weight is doing just fine.  I have noticed that I am toned and muscled.  I am strong and though I could lose 10 pounds, I am happy.  Just worried.

So for today, I will try not to worry about every little thing.  I will try to live in the moment.  Hmmm.  Maybe I will try that meditation thing.

Wish me luck!